The Process

Certain things were made clearer to me this morning… as we can tell I've been talking about the love of God, the healing of God and the mercies of God upon my life, well this morning, I had a better understanding of it all.

In a nutshell, God showed me His love, and then he took away my guilt, revealed Himself to me as the merciful God then showed me the gravity and consequences of my sins. The question is why in that order? Well before I go into why it had to happen in this order I fast-forward to the mercy part, He showed me his mercy because He wanted me to know that He couldn't wait to forgive my sins, but I had to forsake them first and to forsake my sins, I had to come to an understanding of the sins, to know exactly the nature and the intensity of the wrong doing and after that, despise them and ask for forgiveness. It's more like this, if someone has wronged you and just says sorry without knowing why they hurt you or truly understanding what it is they did that hurt you or how and why it has affected your relationship, the chances are they would repeat the action again but in this context, they are not truly sorry because they do not fully understand the wrong they have done you.

When I understood everything I needed to know about my sins and came to my father with the full knowledge but also very repentant, I believe that was when I was truly made whole.

I am awed at the awesomeness of God.

The reason an experience of the love of God came before the removal of guilt was to show me that regardless of whatever state I am in, God still loves me. He never stopped loving me and never will, even in my extreme godless state, He loved me, enough to want to remove the guilt that I felt, because that was one of the obstacles to accepting the love and mercies of Christ. After the experience, I was empowered and more than willing to accept the freedom from the guilt that I felt and receive His love willing. I say empowered because the realization of His love gave me the much needed confidence. My thoughts were “God loves me despite me" and that brought about a deep sense of belonging. It took me to another level, God knew me all along and His love for me never diminished. I wanted to go deeper inside of Him and just remain there. My love for Him intensified and I found myself running towards Him stretching out my hands and desiring and accepting all He had for me.

I opened up completely to Him and then... He removed the guilt. The main point I believe God wanted me to understand is, even in our deepest state of sin, He still loves us. That was one of the reasons why He did not remove man's sin before He came down to die for us. He came down and displayed the most intense love for us while we were yet sinners, then our sins were atoned for? Why? Because He wanted us to understand that HE LOVES US REGARDLESS...

After the guilt was taken away, then came about a revelation of how merciful God is. Next was a true picture of what caused the guilt in the first place. Why was this step down the line? If I had known the intensity of the sin and the damages before I felt the love of God, had my guilt removed and explained to me that He was merciful, I won't have been able to handle it. It was because if it was the first thing I knew, I won't have been able to make it, as it was already, the little I knew made me condemn myself how much more getting a deeper revelation...But repentance came when I truly understood the wrong doing, but by then I was already confident in the love and mercies of God.

In summary my brothers and sisters, God loves you! I can’t over emphasize that God loves you! Your sin does not stop God from loving you. Accept God’s love and he will help you remove the guilt you have become accustomed to carrying, guilt will stop you from rooting out sin, because you’d hate to revisit the situation or if at all you do revisit it, you place yourself under more condemnation, but you have to totally condemn the sin to get rid of it completely, how do you condemn it if you don’t understand it? You need not fear, because as soon as your guilt is taken away, He reveals how merciful He is to you, that way you know you are under no condemnation when you go back to the root. You are fully equipped: Filled with God’s love, guilt free, shown mercy and ready to destroy the root of that little or big fox that tried (or succeeded for a while) to spoil your vineyard.