Big Mouth

How all of una dey? Great? Thank God! This month has been eventful to say the least... In my quest to be more godly, I decided that as a person I talk too much... surprised?? yeah I do alot of talking and in the process put myself in trouble.. not wise abi? that has got to stop, can I do the stopping on my own? lai lai, only God can do the impossible, but the intent has to come from me. My quest to get rid of all idle words, as I do not want to give account of them on the last day, has been difficult, in fact I can comfortably say I've discovered alot about myself because of this quest.. you want to know what I discovered?? I hardly have a silent moment... I have to say almost everything so that nothing bothers me, up until now, that has been my mechanism of handling stress and not getting upset. I'm sure we've heard people say, I say it as it is and let it go, yeah that's me exactly, infact in cases where I cannot speak out especially on the train, guess what I do? I say it to my self... weird huh? true! I discovered that I have conversations with myself, hahaha don't worry it freaked me out too... I would sit down and say to myself, how dare you push me? nonsense! lemme tell you something, you cannot be pushing people around like that, is your head correct? and then I'd feel okay.. can you imagine? somehow whatever was bothering me just had to come out either by me telling the person or me telling myself.

The realization did not make me fee good at all, infact I felt terrible. I've been reading the book of proverbs lately and I must say, a person that talks too much is pretty much a fool... no offense, but seriously, I don't have bible passages but just skim through the whole of proverbs and you'd see what I'm talking about... that's why David said.. "let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable unto you oh Lord". Jesus said, "it is not what goes into a man that defiles him but what comes out of him, for out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks" lol so my heart must have been very "dirty"... the realization was depressing. It did not help matters that as I decided to stop talking as much, I started noticing everything... lol not funny, but who was I kidding.. "it is not unto him that willeth, but God that showeth mercy", Jesus also said, "for man, this is impossible but with God all things are possible" so I changed my technique... now I pray David's prayer "let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable unto you oh Lord", help me lord for on my own I can do nothing. Have I relapsed since, yes I have, but at the same time, I've improved and I'm still improving..

I feel better now that I just let things go, believe it or not, pride is one of the reasons people have to "say it as it is". God forbid that I remain a proud person.. tufiakwa!! for God gives grace to the humble and he resists the proud.. I think I'm better off receiving the grace of God than being resisted by God. Blessed are the poor in heart for they shall see God abi? and blessed are the meek for they shall inherit the earth, no be so? (hope I got the quotes right, abeg read the beatitudes jo) and what is in store for the proud? isn't it destruction and hell? God forbid!! I'd rather let it go than suffer ooh! me, I cannot suffer, now I keep quiet when I am about to explode and just laugh and say God, help me ooh! and guess what? it works. Isn't it better to laugh than to burn in hell? aah! I think laughing is much better.

Prove 17:27 A man of knowledge uses words with restraint and a man of understanding is even tempered (okay atleast I quoted one scripture, now you can rest.. hahaha)

It is not only in areas of speaking our minds that we need to use words with restaint ooh, how about in conversations?.. hmm I've realized that when you start chilling with people that talk too much, you too would start talking too much, and since I have a tendecy to just babble about everything and nothing, I watch who I hang out with now, abeg I am not saying I have abandoned my talkative friends ooh, I am just more careful now that's all, cos this heaven? I must enter.. God, Chineke, Olorun sees my heart ooh, he knows that at this point, I'm ready to do anything to enter heaven, hell is not an option for me at all, I rebuke it in Jesus name Amen!

**Please read Me and My Big Mouth By Joyce Meyer
Well now that I have unloaded, I hope we all have a blessed day, see you when I have another unloading to do....