Mercy

Happy New Year People!

I’m quite thrilled to be loading for the first time in 2009. Believe me, I have a lot to offload, maybe not all at once, anyways… sit back and enjoy!

My year started on an interesting note. There were prophesies, and there were desires and messages. I hope we all believe in prophesies, I know I do! But I digress; we’d leave the topic of prophecies for another time.

Last week, I was blessed to be under the ministration of a man of God I have come to admire and respect. His messages were simple and easy to follow, yet so real. He spoke of the mercies of God! Gosh! Could I have been anymore broken… Oh Lord! I thank you for your mercies. We all know that our heavenly father is merciful, but do we really know that He is merciful? If we are aware of how truly and graciously merciful He is all the time, we’d always have the broken and contrite spirit that is pleasing to Him.

He gave examples; biblical and unbiblical examples of the mercy of God. I plugged myself into the examples and next thing I knew I was totally overwhelmed by the mercy of God; I hit the floor and tearfully thanked God for his mercies.

He quoted a scripture that tore my soul apart because it enacted the mercy and grace of God over my life all over again.

Ps119:67 - “Before I was afflicted I went astray, but now I know thy word”

Here’s what struck!
A few months ago, I wrote about accepting the forgiveness and mercies of God and being released from guilt. Yes! While I have been free from guilt of past sins and have accepted the forgiveness of Jesus. I never really understood the consequences of my past actions. It all began to make sense, the more it became clearer to me, the deeper I desired God, and the more I longed for Him to know I love Him and how much I appreciate what He has done for me.

What made sense?
When David sinned against God by sleeping with another man’s wife, killing the man and then marrying his wife, I’m sure he felt remorse and kept going on, however, the destructive seed he had planted because of his actions were yet to germinate. When he became fully aware of his actions, he went back to God, and confessed and forsook his sins. After that, he was totally rescued; all the fruits of his wicked labor were destroyed.

Likewise, the day I heard of the mercy of God, it took me back to a certain period in my life, I saw it under a different light. I was not filled with guilt this time, I was overwhelmed at how God still loved and took care of me, waiting for the day that I’d come back and say, God although I’ve asked for forgiveness and obtained it, I never really understood the gravity of my actions and how you, you that can’t stand sin, you that turned your back on your only begotten son because He carried the sins of the world, still looked out for me, still protected me, still answered my prayers, all these yet! I never really knew how much I had strayed or even sat for a second to relate certain afflictions with my straying… but now I know His word!

I’m truly broken!

Different thoughts came through my mind; if it weren’t for the mercies of God, what would have become of me? The love God has for me became so visible and I sunk in deeper into sobriety. Alas I’m most convenienced that I’m not worthy!

The Irony
Late last year, I had decided to work for God as much as I can, I was looking forward to it… somewhere deep in my heart, I felt… wow! God must be happy, I mean, He knows that his daughter out there is crazy about Him and wants to do things to please Him and be all about Him. Now the feeling hasn’t gone, but a new one has been added.

I owe it to God to work for Him; it’s no longer a choice for me. Yes! He’d be glad that I’ve chosen that route, but who am I kidding? Even if he wasn’t, my entire existence should still be devoted to Him because I owe Him more than everything.

My desire to spend and be spent for God has taken a new turn, now I’m desperately seeking to work for God, not only because I want Him to smile down at me but because I owe Him much more than I can ever imagine paying back.

I get emotional when I think of the mercies and love of God on my life, why shouldn’t I? I get on my knees and say THANK YOU LORD! IT IS ONLY A GOD LIKE YOU THAT WOULD LOOK AT ME AND STILL LOVE ME, THAT WOULD BE PATIENT WITH ME AND WOULD EVEN WANT TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH ME. ONLY A GREAT GOD LIKE YOU IS WORTHY OF PRAISE!

My prayer is that I never take the mercies and grace of God for granted, that all the days of my life, I’d have a broken and contrite spirit and always give God the praise He deserves.

I sincerely pray that, that will be your prayer as well.