My Desire is to...

I have missed unloading, I’m glad I’m back.

I am certain we all have desires, I know I do. A few days ago someone asked what my fantasies are? I thought about the question for about a minute. Do I really have fantasies? I know I desire a few things and I fantasize about them, so am I correct to assume that my desires are (or affect) my fantacies? (I am referring to my own unique case here).

Before the incident above, I wondered why I desire certain things, some more badly than others, and why I daydream (fantasize) about certain desires and only consider for a second, others. I believe that the priorities we set for ourselves determine the desires we have. So I ask myself, Nene what are your priorities? Off the top of my head I'd tell you one of them is to love the Lord with all of my heart, life and soul, and that would be the utmost truth. Though I have an overwhelming desire to love the Lord, and always seek opportunities to display the love I have for God, I have other desires that are also overwhelming. The sad thing is I daydream about the other desires and not really about worshipping and loving God.

Does that undermine my sincere affection towards God? I doubt it does, but what it tells me is that God is not yet number one in my life. Shocking but true! It is disastrous, to say the least that anything else should come before God in my life or yours, and insulting (not to mention highly impossible) to suggest that they might both be on the same level Matt 6:24.

There is a reason God said to “Seek Him first and every other thing will be added unto us” Matt 6:33, Psalm 37:4. Does He mean to seek what He can do for us? Are we to seek God because of the benefits we receive when we do, or because of who He is? Would I want to be sought because of what I can give or because of who I am? Please don't misunderstand me, I am not saying that we should not expect things from God; He is our heavenly father who loves us and desires to bless us. We should always be expectant to receive all of God's blessings. All I am saying is that we should not seek the gifts before the giver or seek the giver because of the gifts. I digress!

I believe the reason God said to seek him first is because we were not created to receive from God, but to worship Him. Every good gift comes from God and He does not withhold them from us James 1:17. He loves us! Even the ungodly receive from God so how much more we, His children? I can imagine that it bothers him when instead of worshipping Him we are busy bothering about when our desires will get fulfilled or adding more desires to the list and pushing God farther down the list, when in fact, it is His desire to bless us.

Does that mean that I should not have desires? Not at all! “God grants us the desires of our hearts” 1 John 5:14-15, Mark 11:24. He intends for us to desire, but our desires should always be in line with His values James 4:1-4. Simply put, our desires should always ultimately glorify God. Psalm 37:4

Anything that comes before God does not glorify God and is not from Him 2 Corinthians 1:5, 1John 2:16, James 4:1-4. Hard to believe but very true, it may have been from Him at some point but along the way, we snatched it from Him and made it our own, better still, we valued the gift more than the giver. This is exactly where the problem lies. As long as God is not number one in our desires, we are idol worshipping!

God detests idol worship! Ex 34:14 But He loves us, and I love Him too. He knows that I would not deliberately idol worship, but that is not an excuse. Now that by His grace I know better, I come before him and plead for mercy and grace because He alone can put it in me to seek him first and every other thing will be added unto me. 2Corin 1:21

I thank God for His unending grace and love.

Col 3:1, Gal 5:16-18

I’d have loved to write some more but I found an article that best articulates how our desires can be aligned with God’s will
http://www.intouch.org/atf/cf/%7B865500FE-874B-487B-A95C-C0B327D0A690%7D/LP061231%20Desires%20Web.pdf

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